But I won't give up tomorrow.

They say, nothing's too late.

It's never too late to stop regretting about something or someone that ruins your life. But I disagree. Maybe it's true, I will be able to stop regretting it, but I won't be able to stop remembering it. I can't stop hoping everything will come back, sooner or later; the time, things, people. I just need someone who tells me that everything will be alright. If I could change everything, I would. The truth is, the things had already happened. And I can't change it. However, people always wish that they're possible to change everything. Including me. But 'change' doesn't mean 'fix'. It's useless to change a thing but not going to fix it.

And sometimes I give up.

But I don't give up to be strong. I always tell my self that I'm supposed to be strong. But I'm a human. It's okay to feel tired, isn't it? I know I should fix everything, I should fix myself. Because it's not enough to change a thing without fix it, like I said before. But sometimes I give up. I give up to keep wanting about things which will never come back. About things which I missed. I give up, but I'm still trying. Life's too short to worry about un-fix-able things. But life's too precious to give up too fast. Is it too fast to give up? After all those fuckin' things I have got? I may give up today, but I won't give up tomorrow.

Cause you had a bad day.

2 days left, it was totally bad days.

Seandainya aku bisa berteriak kencang, hanya untuk membuat dada ini tidak sesak lagi, aku ingin. Kata orang, hari buruk itu selalu ada, dan pastinya dibalik hari buruk, ada hari yang menyenangkan. Dua hari kemarin terlalu berat. Bukan karena orang-orang di dalamnya yang ikut andil membuat hariku menjadi tidak sebaik yang aku harapkan. Tapi karena aku merasa orang-orang tersebut tidak benar-benar disana. Sepi, seperti sendiri. Seperti...menghilang. Seperti tidak ada yang akan pernah mengerti.

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

Past or Past?

Some people through their life despairingly. Aku menganggap bahwa sesuatu yang terjadi di masa lalu seharusnya dikenang, mungkin momen-momen terbaik saja yang memang pantas untuk dikenang. Aku belum bisa mencerna, mengapa yang dinamakan 'masa lalu' bisa mempengaruhi masa yang kita lalui sekarang. Everything that happens now, depends on the past. Kalau dipikir-pikir, sih, terlalu lucu untuk menganggap yang lalu tetaplah lalu. Karena bukan tidak mungkin kita menganggapnya belum berlalu. Yang 'bermasalah' bukan masa lalu-nya, tetapi momen yang terjadi waktu itu.

Memorizing all the beautiful moments is the best thing people always do. Saking the best-nya, rasanya itu pingin punya remote yang bisa nge-pause, play, dan skip semaunya. Karena mengenang hal yang indah itu wajib, karena jelas tidak ada momen yang terulang dengan sama persis. But, remembering all the painful moments as fuckin' horrible as it seems. Rasanya itu seperti habis buat minuman yang masih panas, terus ketumpahan, tepat di permukaan kulit. Perih. 

Terlalu perih hingga sulit untuk menyembuhkannya.

I'm supposed to be strong, no matter how hard it is.

Before I Fall (Lauren Oliver)

Such an amazing book ever from Lauren Oliver actually. This is a highly recommended book in this year! It has been driving me crazy for 3 weeks and I can't even put it down. It's fuckin' awesome and I hope that it will be a movie. After I read this book, I always think about "if there's no tomorrow..." and it'll make my life better, because I know that I have to make my life useful for others. You guys should read it! Check this out, Lauren Oliver's Website

Synopsis:

What if you only had one day to live? What would you do? Who would you kiss? And how far would you go to save your own life?

Samantha Kingston has it all: looks, popularity, the perfect boyfriend. Friday, February 12, should be just another day in her charmed life. Instead, it turns out to be her last.

The catch: Samantha still wakes up the next morning. Living the last day of her life seven times during one miraculous week, she will untangle the mystery surrounding her death--and discover the true value of everything she is in danger of losing.

Sleeping With Sirens!

 

Omgggg:'))))))  Actually, I'm totally love all of their songs. A hardcore band, and this band was formed in 2009. With Ears to See and Eyes to Hear is highly recommended! You have to hear it:-)

 

 

Kata orang-orang, untuk menjadi tidak perduli itu mudah. Mungkin, tapi bagiku tidak. Rasanya seperti harus mengerti sesuatu, tapi cuma bisa memendam. Aku bisa saja terlihat palsu karena tidak mau perduli.  Tapi kumohon, sesulit inikah untuk mencoba tidak memperdulikan hal yang paling kamu perdulikan?

No One is Perfect, God is

     Have you ever seen a man who doesn’t think that he’s smart and he feels useless because he can’t do anything for himself and others? Or maybe, have you ever known about a man who believes in God, but always afraid of everything that he never tries? If you haven’t, then I’ve ever. I’ve seen and known that man and that person is my friend. She’s a girl, and maybe I can call her as my bestfriend. She’s smart enough, I think. But she doesn’t has any self-confidence. So, she keeps all that she knows alone. She believes in God, but she doesn’t believe that she can do something which is may help her problem. In my opinion, the ones who don’t believe in theirselves but they say that they believe in God, not really mean it at all. Because, if they believe in God, they’ll believe in theirselves automatically.

     I’ve ever heard about, “No one is perfect, but God is the perfect one.” I think that quote is true. Who’s perfect in this world? Nobody. And if you think that you’re perfect, think twice. Example, maybe there’s a girl who is rich, pretty, smart, etc. But, could you see her own problem? I mean, her own ‘family-problem’? Maybe she’s a broken-home girl, or her parents always fighting everyday. You may guess that person who looks perfect from the outside is a happy person, because you don’t know his/her own problem. I have a friend in my school. She’s pretty, rich, and have many friends. But do you know how smart is she? I think the knowledge in her brain is 0%, LOL. Because she’s always thinking that money is everything. So, she can ‘buy’ her score at school, such a jerk thing, right? And I don’t know why, people who think that they’re perfect, always judge others from their appearance. No one is perfect. Including me, you, our parents, and people.

     So, look at yourself first before judge someone. We-are-not-perfect. You may say that you’re perfect because you have everything. But remember, God is the perfect one. And always be like that. Accept the truth that nobody’s perfect doesn’t mean that you don’t believe in yourself. You may not perfect, but make something perfect. In short, we’re imperfect, but we can make everything becomes perfect.